Proverbs 31:25

Proverbs 31:25
She is clothed with strength and dignity,
and she laughs without fear of the future.

Today, the below pics made me think of this verse. I look at these fotos and feel like I was living in the moment without a fear or worry in the world. Then I jump onto pinterest and look @ tatoos and first one to pop up was this verse...hmmm starting to think someones trying to make a point!

Or seeing the wording "let it be" over & over again throughout the last few weeks...again someones trying to make a point!

Life def has had its challenges--esp in the last few months. Currently, my life is "bananas" as I like to refer to it as, but Im more happy and content then I have been in a longggg time...now I just need to learn how to laugh without fear fod the future..cuz fear if the future def has been no stranger lately. But what will be will be.

My hopes and desires for this summer...learn how to accept and even appreciate the cards Ive been dealt and to learn how to laugh at fears instead of dwell on them.

Apartment life

Well last weekend was bananas. Moved into apartment and all big furniture to ulysses. Cim house just has closet, kirtchen and bathroom stuff in it still.

Still no buyers for cim, prayers there appreciated. Below are some pics of apartment, my new owl stuff (btw obssessed) and of nanni & papas hutch refurbished as a new entertainment ctr.

This is my first week of a full day on days...verdicts still out on my thoughts of it.

So far, its been kinda fun have girl time, watch silly "girl show" as ben would call them, alone time and way nice walk few feet to wk.

Below r also a few fotos of storms from today. Ks amazes me with the weather.

Less than 3 months til alana & bretts wedding and another ca trip!! So stoked...and bk to gym hard core tom! Here comes achy muscles!

Thats all for tonight!

Weight...why do we let it define us?!?

I think as women (and some men) are always on a diet, cutting something out, trying new fitness crazes, etc...arent we all sick of it?!?!

Today I went to the dr cuz my ear was hurting, sure enough ear infection. But he says to me "ur getting skinny", a nice compliment...but then it leads into an interesting conversation. He says what have u been doing. I said besides tracking my calories here and there on my fitness pal app, dojng yoga & running here and there, attempting to make wiser choices, I mainly just stopped caring! He laughed. I proceeded to tell him of course I try new things for a week here and there, but honestly Im eating salt and vineager chips mult times a week, drinking pepsi & coffee still, eating out and cooking with butter from time to time.

Sure I still "care" just not as much as I used to. I think there have been mult times where I let being overweight, "obese", large etc define me and at times make me a lil blue.

So now, while I do still care I am not obssessed bout it. Im larger, yes probably always will be to an extreme, and Im okay with that. What I now want is health. The closer I got to 30 the more health problems I seemed to find myself with. Over the last 1.5 years I have seen how loosing a few lbs here and there have helped me become alot more healthy.

The dr proceeded to tell me 11 more lbs and ull no longer be "obese" just "overweight". I just laughed. He said whats so funny (again). I told him I am the smallest I have been in at least five years, probably longer and Im happy. Sure Id like to be more toned, but Im in the smallest size Ive been for a long time and im happy. My bp is controlled and on lower dose of meds, my labs are all normal, my cholesterol is great, for the most part Ive had regular periods for bout two years and I feel more emotionally stable. So, im not gonna let a little chart that some man probably created define me. He again laughed and said good.

So, while I am by no means perfect, and still will obsess from time to time--hello Im a woman! Im happy were Im at, will continue to work towards better health...but Im still gonna eat slt & vineager hips, drink whatever I want (moderation), eat butter & dessert and enjoy my life!