Hello to all who read this! This morning I was looking at the calendar and realized that in exactly three weeks from tomorrow I will be turning 30!!! Then I thought where in the world has 30 years gone? So, I've decided that for my 30th year of life I am going to blog and capture the moments of life that this year will bring. I am going to try and be dedicated to blogging once a day for the next 365 days + the 6 weeks leading up to my birthday.
I titled this blog "my journey into growing up and loving who God has created me to be" because it purely describes where I am at in life and what I strive to do.
My journey growing up as a child was a blessed one. It was full of amazing amounts of unconditional love and laughter and tons of family and friends. It was a childhood that I would not trade for anything.
My journey into adulthood too has also been a blessed one. I've been blessed with amazing friends and family members who constantly support me in all of my crazy adventures that I take myself on.
My journey the last couple of years has definitely been one of the hardest and most rewarding journeys I have ever been on. It has been a journey that has been filled with lots of love, laughter, tears, fears and realizations about who I am and who I want to become.
Awhile ago, I was watching a silly Hallmark movie, and this older guy (about 45+) in the movie was asked if you could become a father at this point in your life and be the oldest dad on the playground would you do. His reply was yes, in an instant. This is my life, I will do things in my own time, and who cares what anyone else says or thinks. As lame as it sounds, I was shouting at the TV telling this TV character, "YES, that is right!" I felt like it was a statement that I could relate to whole heartedly. We all know that I dance to the beat of my own drum, and I also married someone who does the same, so my life is full of unconventionalness all around.
I have often felt a sense of disapproval for many of the decisions that I have made or for not being conventional with the timing of many of my choices in life. Then I got to thinking about that statement a bit further and came to the conclusion that most of the disapproval I was feeling came from myself and not others that mattered in my life! (side note: this is not the only time that I got to thinking about this, but for some odd reason something really hit me when I was watching this silly movie)
Somewhere along the line I became so consumed with what society says about how we should live our lives, where we should be by a certain age, when we should have kids, when we should buy a house, what kind of a house or car we should buy, etc., and lost so much of who I was as a person and what I truly wanted out of life.
This summer has been a humbling experience for me. It feels like God is bringing this huge and long life lesson full circle and showing me that if I shut up, stop running at a million miles per minute and just be still, listen and trust in Him it will make this journey into loving and becoming the person God has created me to be so much easier!
So, with all that said, I'd like to change that statement made from the silly movie that made me think to say, "This is my life, I will do things in God's time, and I am blessed with an amazing husband and amount of friends and family that will support me and love me unconditionally!"
I just want to say thank you to all who are in my life who love and support me no matter what!
Okay not all posts or in fact not very many posts will be this "girlie or mushy". :)
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