Weight...why do we let it define us?!?

I think as women (and some men) are always on a diet, cutting something out, trying new fitness crazes, etc...arent we all sick of it?!?!

Today I went to the dr cuz my ear was hurting, sure enough ear infection. But he says to me "ur getting skinny", a nice compliment...but then it leads into an interesting conversation. He says what have u been doing. I said besides tracking my calories here and there on my fitness pal app, dojng yoga & running here and there, attempting to make wiser choices, I mainly just stopped caring! He laughed. I proceeded to tell him of course I try new things for a week here and there, but honestly Im eating salt and vineager chips mult times a week, drinking pepsi & coffee still, eating out and cooking with butter from time to time.

Sure I still "care" just not as much as I used to. I think there have been mult times where I let being overweight, "obese", large etc define me and at times make me a lil blue.

So now, while I do still care I am not obssessed bout it. Im larger, yes probably always will be to an extreme, and Im okay with that. What I now want is health. The closer I got to 30 the more health problems I seemed to find myself with. Over the last 1.5 years I have seen how loosing a few lbs here and there have helped me become alot more healthy.

The dr proceeded to tell me 11 more lbs and ull no longer be "obese" just "overweight". I just laughed. He said whats so funny (again). I told him I am the smallest I have been in at least five years, probably longer and Im happy. Sure Id like to be more toned, but Im in the smallest size Ive been for a long time and im happy. My bp is controlled and on lower dose of meds, my labs are all normal, my cholesterol is great, for the most part Ive had regular periods for bout two years and I feel more emotionally stable. So, im not gonna let a little chart that some man probably created define me. He again laughed and said good.

So, while I am by no means perfect, and still will obsess from time to time--hello Im a woman! Im happy were Im at, will continue to work towards better health...but Im still gonna eat slt & vineager hips, drink whatever I want (moderation), eat butter & dessert and enjoy my life!