The week of flies

***If you take the time to read this, I appreciate it. Hopefully I bring some laughter and joy into your day. But, please be aware that this is also an outlet for me to discuss things in my life, things that may not always be happy and full of joy.  I do not mean to offend anyone with anything that I may say.

My journey this week is apparently one including FLIES!!! After nearly swallowing one in my coffee, followed by one landing on my iced tea and then dying, I end up having one fly up my nose today!  It was a small fly, but it scared me, and grossed me out. I was nodding off at work with the child that I care for, and all of the sudden I heard a buzzing and then BAM up my nose it went. Luckily I was able to blow it right out, and the dumb bug was still ALIVE! 

According to one of the guys at work, the flies are acting crazy because we got an inch + of rain this last weekend. I'm not sure what it is, but it is driving me crazy! :)

Writing an entry yesterday was allot easier than it is today. I had originally had an idea about how I wanted to write this, but once I started putting those words down it sounded like I was whining or was sharing information that silly people tweet about each day...

My current primary nursing job is working with pediatrics in home. I am lucky to primarily be with one child, who has a great family.  I thought taking this job would mean picking my own hours, weekends off, no over nights, and easy vacation time off whenever Ben wants to go on vacation.  I never really stopped to think about the emotional parts that would come along with this job.  When I leave work I continually am filled with mixed emotions.  Some days I feel like an over paid babysitter and some days I leave feeling extremely happy that I was there to give the family a few hours of rest. 

Everyday I leave feeling extremely thankful for all my friends and family who have healthy children. The feeling that has surprised me the most is the feeling of emptiness.  Most of you know that God hasn't had it in the cards for us to get pregnant yet. For the most part, this is something that I have dealt with, and I have come to terms with...I guess that is why I am surprised when I do leave feeling a sense of emptiness.  Perhaps this job that I took for allot of the wrong reasons is a blessing in disguise.  Perhaps God has a bigger plan with me taking this job.

On a lighter note, tonight I get to spend some much needed girl time with some classmates from nursing school! This Friday will be the first "big girl check" that I get, and I excited to take Ben out for a nice date on ME!  
 
I hope everyone has a great night!