I've been thinking allot lately that I have enjoyed this blogging thing allot more than I thought that I would. At first I was afraid it was going to turn into a whine-fest or something that I would eventually not look forward to doing, but so far I look forward to blogging each day.
Certain situations today reminded me of how thankful I am for the family that I come from...
Growing up in the O'Leary household you never wondered how one felt towards you or what another person was thinking. We shared our emotions all of the time, and "love" was something that was said on a daily basis, sometimes more than once. Perhaps we over shared our emotions on a daily basis, it took 10 minutes to answer one question that was originally a yes or no question or we had Philippians 4:32 sung to us because we were being a bit to onrie with one another, but there was never a doubt in ones mind that they were loved.
The older I become, the more I realize that not every house was like mine, not every household shared openly about their feelings and discussed everything from what they had to eat for lunch to what their bowel habits had been like that day! This "realization" caused a lot of frustration for me and for friends growing up. I have now realized that I had "expectations" of other people because I thought it was what everyone was like. It took me a long time to realize that not everyone was comfortable knowing what I had for lunch or what my bowels had done that day, and that not everyone shared when they were annoyed or upset with one another.
Today, I greatly appreciate the household that I was raised in and in the ways in which I was raised. Although I may talk too much from time to time, and perhaps share to much information, I am extremely thankful that I am comfortable sharing how I am feeling and talking about my life.
My dad and younger sister are very "mushy" from time to time and it can make me feel a bit embarrassed or uncomfortable. Although I am an open person and "in touch with my feelings", I still get uncomfortable and don't quite know how to deal with an overabundance of praise or "mushiness". But, on here, it is easier to be "mushy" like Liz & dad are, maybe not as "mushy" but way easier to do on a blog than in person or over the phone.
So, here goes my mushiness...Dad, thanks for always being a constant and strong man in my life who was not afraid to tell me how much he loved me or how proud he was of me. Mom, thanks for always having a calm approach with me and all of my hair brained ideas and shenanigans that I pulled, thanks for listening to all that I have to say and not over reacting when I try to get your goat and for being there for me at the drop of a hat. Sally, thanks for being an amazing big sister, for all of the advice you continually give me and for being a strong example of an amazing mom and wife. Liz, thanks for being a great little sis and for dealing with my daily bossiness and control issues I so distinctly have as being a big sister and for continually expressing how you love me even if it makes me uncomfortable (lol).
To my "extended" members of my family who were always around growing up and many who continue to be around still to this day...thank you for accepting my family as your own and for loving all of us as much as we love you. Thank you for all of the amazing memories you have given me and continue to give me.
To Ben...thanks for loving me despite all of my goofy quirks, thank you for laughing with me on a continually basis and for making me feel safe and loved and thank you for providing me with an amazing life!
And to the "newer" members of my family...thank you for accepting me into your lives and for loving me just the way that I am!
Today on my journey, I am okay being "mushy" on here because sometimes you just need to tell those close to you that you love and appreciate them and are thankful for them beyond words!
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